CSIII: Coming to an End. x_x

     It has been a long year for all of us. Almost everything is now coming to an end. Good thing I am still surviving this school year especially now when all the requirements are piled up. I couldn’t quit because I wouldn’t let all my ‘hard work’ end up doing nothing or causing nothing at all. Alright, now, let’s talk about computer science. Hmmm. Like what I’ve said before, I never liked it. But the logic made me interested.

     THIRD GRADING PERIOD in CS sucked. Having been absent for two weeks and not being able to take the long test really pulled my grades down. I really hate it. Argh. Honestly, my eagerness in learning more about the subject suddenly decreased. It totally sucked. Ma’am, panira sa card!!!! Nakakainis!!! Tapos ma’am, ang saklap talaga e. five points ‘yong nilagapak ko!!!! Waaaa!! Nauunawaan ninyo po ba ang sakit na nararamdaman ko??? Iniyakan ko pa po iyon.. grabe talaga!!

     This failure made it hard for me to catch up and cope up with the next lessons. It made me think that I’ll always fail. It really sucked. That’s the only word I can use to describe it. It sucks and forever will suck.  Haaay. Anyway, you asked us to update our journal. Third quarter’s done and the fourth is coming to an end.

     For me, the fourth grading period is too short. It is maybe because of the various activities that we had, example, the prom. What did we take up this quarter?? All I can remember is we took up the nested for and array. That’s all. It was honestly a bit confusing for me. Thinking that I failed the third quarter actually made me feel helpless this quarter. I wasn’t able to think properly in our hands-on activities and I didn’t comprehend much of the lesson.

     The third grading really made a big impact in my outlook; my view of Computer Science. It was really a big slap. Instead of it being an alarm or a signal to wake me up, it made me fall; fall to an abyss. I don’t know when it’ll end and when I’ll rise again.

     Now, I feel that I did almost nothing this quarter; I wasn’t able to help my group mates; I was so useless. That’s all I can say: I am useless now. Hoping I’ll change by tomorrow.